Radishes: gone. Beets: half gone. Lettuce and peas: chewed down to the nub. Survivors: onion, garlic and potatoes. I think the only reason potatoes survived is because we don't actually have the tubers yet.
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back east from Montana), we stopped at the hot springs again. Note the PINK swim diaper. It was my first true cave into social expectations with J bug. The first day of swimming lessons, the instructor kept calling her a him, I presume, because she was wearing a BLUE swim diaper (not even trunks). All the other girl-babies in class wear an actual swimming suit over their swim diaper (which to me looks like a major pain-in-the-ass to put on--regardless, I almost caved into that too), but we don't and yet everyone has now managed to figure out that she's a girl. In 9 months, I have learned a few things about the whole "is it a boy or a girl" thing. And that is, at this age nobody really gives a shit, they just want to know which pronoun to use. I've had J bug dressed in blue, boyish hand-me-downs and people still seem to know she's a girl. And I've had her wear a PINK DRESS and people will still ask, "boy or girl"? Bless them.
:: Anyway, I wanted my man to see our little fish in action.
:: So the great thing about living near a wealthy resort-town is the awesome fireworks over the 4th. I heard that DC's show lasted 17 minutes. I didn't time it, but I do believe this one was significantly longer. Maybe we should invite the Obama's next year.
:: Oh, Osa. In the last three weeks, I have taken three "last photos" of Osa. This most recent was the worst. After putting Juniper to bed, I noticed blood on the kitchen floor. Then, a little while later, her water dish was filled with blood. Solid red. Fuck, I thought. She won't live through the weekend. I dug out the phonebook, looked up the 24-hour animal hospital, picked up the phone and thought, What am I doing? And I had the internal debate with myself over when to say when.
All of us want our pets to go on their own. None of us want the responsibility of THAT decision. My husband and I always thought she'd have a seizure (she's epileptic) that would stop her heart (she has congestive heart failure). But it's becoming more and more clear to us that we won't have it so easy. And so I hung up the phone and I thought, This is it. I have to let her go. And I cried and I hugged her bony old body and I whispered in her ear what a good, good dog she has been, how she has been the BEST dog, and how sorry I am that she has not been as spoiled these last nine months, and how happy I am that she lived to meet our daughter, and I thanked her for all the good times, all the backpacking trips, for our wonderful ten years of life together. And then, I gave Osa her last bone to chew on.
:: In glancing back through this blog as well as my iphoto album, I have noticed a pattern I am beginning to fear. The Missing Mother. It's sort of like a Deadbeat Dad, except only on paper (so, obviously, not nearly as bad). I don't exclude pictures of myself because I'm trying to "hide the baby fat" or anything like that (in fact, I am happy to report that my weight is a tad below pre-pregnancy, although I attribute that achievement 100% to Juniper's vigorous breastfeeding regimen), I just don't have any photos of myself. I'm kind of a camera hog, and when I do pass the camera to my man, I'm kind of bossy about it. I'm trying to change.
:: Last weekend, Juniper and I drove back to Montana for the last year of the National Folk Festival. It travels to different cities every 3 years, but Butte, MT was the first time in 40 years it has been west of the Mississippi. (Next 3 years is Tennessee, I believe.)left behind when we moved back to Wyoming.
And then, Juniper and I drove home.becomes a gremlin in the car after 7:30 p.m. Or rather, I was hoping she had out-grown that stage. But she hasn't, and after I exhausted "Humpty Dumpty" and "Little Miss Muffet" and "Jack and Jill" and all the other sing-song nursery rhymes on the CD my mom bought me after reading this post, I once again resorted to 99 Bottles of Beer on the Wall. Sad, I know, but it's mindless and I can keep it going for a while.